Geek week

           With my husbands geek fest quick approaching, I decided to take advantage and have as much fun with my cute girls as I could this last week. A computer game came out on Tuesday that Jason has been waiting for for years! you think I exaggerate, but no,  I can assure you I have heard talk of this game for as long as I can remember. It has been the topic of SO many conversations I never thought that I'd be a part of for as long as I have been married, and Jason insists that it's been longer then that. Thats right, diablo 3 is here! We spent tuesday here, with Jason and 3 friends locked in the office, chatting away on their headsets, game on from about 7 in the morning til around 10 at night. What a day, but for Jason I love it. He needs that break and as much as I miss him it's so nice for him to finally have something that takes his mind off of everything stressful in his life.

         
            What did me and my cute girls do? We hung out with my cute sister in law(whose husband was one of the gamers hiding in the office). We bought a pool and swam all morning. We made got lots swinging time in and all sorts of fun play time. We made treats and gorged on way to many sweets and just enjoyed the day all we could while on occasion peaking in at the room of grown men and laughing about how in to this game they were. We enjoyed every minute of fun that we could.

        I have really been making a big effort lately to be a better mom to these girls, the kind of mom that they deserve. I don't want to be yelling and  mad all the time, so the best solution to me was to let go of keeping our house clean all the time and just enjoying time with them more often. It has really been so nice, they are happier, I'm happier. We swim, we swing, we paint with water or side walk paint, we play video games, we bake snacks, we color and we just play. I love my girls so much and want to always have a great relationship with them, I know this is the first step  toward that and I am working hard to make sure it stays that way. Love that time we get.

A post a week

    I was recently reading a friends blog where she committed to a blog post a day, and while I think thats awesome, I know I won't stick to it that often, but because neither Jason or I are very good with journaling, I'm realizing how important it is to me to keep up with my blogging, so that somewhere we have a record of the things the girls are doing and what is going on in our lives. So I'm going to try something new and stick with it for as long as I can. At least once a week I'm going to write a post, a little update on our lives whats new, anything that seems worth remembering along with a picture of the girls from that last week. I am terrible at taking pictures and wish that I had more pictures of my girls before they started growing up. No matter how boring or short the post, I am realizing if i t's important to me it's worth it.

          I've been thinking a lot lately about what will change in our family when the time does come to add a new littler person to the mix. I have so many mixed emotions about it all. LOVE the thought of a new tiny little baby,  but I'm already loosing my mind with these two, how will I ever be able to handle more. How will I have time to make sure a new baby feels just as important and loved as the other two. How will Lilly, my sassy demanding little princess,  handle having a new little thing to share with and to take attention away from her. Another reason I'm starting to feel like it's so important I keep the best track of things now, Our house is getting more organized t hen ever, I try to spend as much time just playing with the girls as I can and make sure we're not forgetting any cute things that they do or say before I add even more chaos to the mix.

      There have been so many things that have made my life crazy lately, I'm glad that I've had some of this come to mind. To remind me what is important in my life and to focus on that rather then the relationships or things that I don't have. I've been letting so many things get to me that shouldn't. I have an amazing husband who does all he can for me and my girls. He goes to work every day all day to be sure that we have the things we need and want. He comes home and tries hard to make time for these 2 little girls that love him more then anything in the world. He gives up a lot of what he wants and needs to be able to provide things for these girls or things our family needs. He is always there for me when I need him and tries so hard to cheer me up when I'm down, no matter how ridiculous I am being. I have 2 amazing little girls that have their moments of being huge pains in the butt, but over all are adorable sweet loving girls who even on the hardest of days can always bring a smile to my face. They are such good girls, and I love that they are such good friends. Mia is the first thing Lilly looks for when she wakes up and stays right by her sisters side every second. Mia tries so hard to show Lilly how to do all the things big girls do, she wants to much for her sister to always be happy and having fun. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.

       A friend told me once that your family are the main characters in your story, as long as that is happy and good, then there's nothing else to worry about. You'll get your happily ever after. Everything else is just a bonus. Every friendship, every trip, every toy everything is just something that can make it even better. Focus on your family and making that great and everyone happy and life is good.

What a Crazy Life

    Still can't really believe what a crazy couple of months we've had. Some good some bad. Just crazy. Lots of moments of feeling crazy overwhelmed, but balanced with lots of fun moments with my love and my girls and realizing how lucky we are to have each other, happy and healthy.

      It all started with heading to AZ for my cute sister in laws wedding. We're so happy for her and love her cute husband. It was such a fun week. I wasn't to involved in the planning of my own wedding, just kind of showed up to that one, so it was fun to be a part of hers. Lots of making paper fans and lots of gorilla glue, but it all came together and looked great!

 Best part of the week though had to be this!

    My very best friend and her adorable family! She had her second baby just a couple of weeks before we came and I LOVED being there to see that beautiful baby girl. I wasn't able to see her first baby til she was about 5 months old, so I spent every second I could over at their house just hanging out and holding that sweet little miss. AND I found out while we were there that they'll be moving to Utah in the  fall!!! Best day ever!

   The wedding was over soon and we made our way back home and to normal life. My brother came to visit with his adorable daughter and thats when things got crazy. The first day of that trip my mom broke the news to us that my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer. To be honest, I wasn't really sure how to feel about any of it. It's not terminal, he'll survive with some uncomfortable side effects, it was just a matter of surgery and hoping that  it hadn't spread beyond that. Since then the surgery has happened and went well and the results of the pathology report are back and in my moms words, not what we had hoped. I feel stuck again with not knowing how to feel. Still nothing to serious, but it never feels good in any way when the  word 'cancer' is involved. I guess it all means the chances it spread are higher then they thought and more tests will be needed. So basically a 'wait and see'.

   Last crazy news of the month, we had our first broken bone. With all the crazy things that my fearless little girl does, I am so surprised it took this long and that this is what it was. Mia slammed her finger in the car door. She got over it so quickly and went back to playing normal so fast,we didn't think anything of it.The day after it happened we even went to one of those jump places with the trampolines and foam pits and what not, not once did she even complain it hurt her. A could of days later we finally caved and took her to the doctor, even the doctor was sure it wasn't broken but recommended we get an xray. Sure enough it was broken, the radiologist even thought it might be displaced and recommended we go to an orthopedic surgeon. We couldn't get an appt for a few days, so after a few days of stressing out over her every movement and worrying about if she'd need surgery or what they'd say, turns out it was nothing but a tiny crack. 3 weeks of wearing a tiny little splint on the tip of her finger, no follow up appts, no more xrays nothing. She was fine.

     Now we're just enjoying that fact that its finally nice outside. Spending time with my cute girls and finally really starting to like having our cute puppy around now that she can spend so much time outside. Just waiting for  the next challenge to come our way.

Happy 2nd Birthday Baby!!

       
          What to say to my sweet baby girl on her special day.I can't believe it's been 2 years since you came in to our lives and I can't even begin to say how amazingly happy you make us every day. You have been my girl since the day you were born and I absolutely love having my little buddy with me all the time. It breaks my heart to see you growing up and I hate the thought of the day I don't have my baby girl with me all the time, but I absolutely love watching you become more and more of your own sweet little person every day.

         You have always been such a sweet and loving little girl, always willing to hand out the hugs and kisses to everyone you love. Dangerous for your Mom who can never tell you no. With a little smile and 'Pease' in the sweet little voice just melts my heart and you get your way.

         Baby girl I don't know what to say to you other then how much I absolutely love and adore you. I can't believe we've had you in our lives for 2 years, I wish with all my heart I could just keep you tiny and here with me forever. We love you so much and so look forward to watching you grow into a beautiful little lady. Love you always with all my heart!

Nostalgic day

Well, I've made promises in the past to the few followers I have to blog more often and, of course, every time I have not followed through. I get so caught up in the day to day life and forget to take the time to do it until today when I finally realized how much I want to post every mundane little detail of my life, more importantly, of my girls lives. Before I know it, a year will pass and I won't remember the funny thing Mia said this morning, or the crazy thing Lilly ate(and later threw up) yesterday.

Here I am with these 2 little girls, forgetting to savor every minute I have with them and then complain that time is passing to fast. I mean, wasn't Lilly born yesterday?! How is she so big and talking so much? When did she get so grown up? How will I ever remember to tell her the crazy stories of leaving the room for 2 seconds only to come back to find her dancing on top of the kitchen table, eating rocks dirt leaves plastic anything she can get her hands on, getting a drink all by her big girl self(from the toilet after her sister forgot to close the bathroom door), dunking her shoes in the toilet, giving her baby doll a bath all by her self(again, in the toilet). How will I remember her walking around with anything that remotely looks like a phone and saying hi and carrying on a conversation or following around her big sister just to wait for her to stop so she can push her around til she screams. Or the adorable loud noises of 'mmm yumm' and sucking she makes eating anything that tastes good. How will I remember all the times she figured out if she only unplugs the modem she'll get all the attention she wants from her Daddy who she absolutely adores.

And Mia! Oh my sweet tiny baby girl... who will be 4 years old in only 4 short months. She has already reached the age of preferring to spend every second of every day with her friends instead of with me. She is starting to figure out that there are other people in the world more fun and amazing and wonderful then her own mom and dad. She has learned to repeat everything that she has heard said and asks me all the time 'why is that driver a stupid idiot mom?' or yelling at me to get in the corner when she gets mad. She has learned to no longer just trust everything we tell her and questions everything we tell her to do. How did my little tiny 5 lbs baby turn in to such a grown up little girl? Since when does she not want to have me with her every second of every day? The last 4 years has been such a speedy blur, I don't know how that girl has gotten so grown up and so smart, I still can't believe it's been so long since the first time I saw her beautiful little face.

So, the time has come that I finally give in and take the time to write these things down before I get any older and can't remember them all on my own. I already couldn't tell you half the crazy things that Mia has said and done to make Jason and I just crack up all the time and I don't want to forget anymore. Life changes and passes to fast, I don't want to forget another minute.

4 months in a nutshell

Well after my last failed promise of being sure to keep up withe the blog from here on out, I will no longer make promises and just do what I can. Life is crazy, I know I'll forget it all and really should be better at keeping memories somewhere, now just to find the time. Here it goes, one crazy summary of what has happened in the last... 4?months or so since I last posted...

Lilly... where to begin. She turned 1 with a ladybug themed family party and loved tearing in to her cake, when she finds something she loves that girl can eat! Turning one also brought a new trampoline, sandbox, toys, movies and her new sassy little attitude. Quickly went from a few steps to running everywhere, climbing everything, and eating anything from sand to paper to rocks, anything. A few times of getting enough rocks in to make her throw up later, she isn't allowed to spend much time outside without constant close adult supervision. Soon this was all followed by a trip to AZ to see Nonna and spend some time with cute cousin Madi. She loved the pool, didn't care much about Madi, loved the sun and hated the drive home. That consisted of 3 puking kids, Grammy letting her jump out of the car, a gash on her head, a crying worried mom, angry phone calls from Dad, 9 hours later a stop at the doctor and 3 stitches, we finally got to take the poor baby home along with Mia who threw up way to many times to count in between. She is amazing at her temper tantrums and shows them off often, throwing herself on the ground screaming and crying and lately turns to biting, but only Mom when she can't get her way. She is now nearly 1 1/2, I have no idea how we got here from the day she was born, I miss my tiny girl, but I will say as much trouble as she is, she is the sweetest most cuddly little baby there is and she sure does love her Mom. A welcome change from little miss Mia who at that age was a Daddy's girl through and through.

Mia in 4 months, not a whole lot has changed. She loved going to see her Nonna, didn't understand why we couldn't just bring baby Madi home with us, and hated coming back home from the trip to Arizona. She asks me weekly if it is her birthday next and insists that she have a pirate party with a Jack Sparrow cake. I was sure this pirate obsession would pass by now, boy was I wrong. She is still in love with Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones, chooses to watch the pirate movies or Megamind over any princess or girly movie, now has a huge obsession with toys from the Cars movie, and I have completely given up on her ever being a big girly girl, at least any time soon. She has 2 new good friends that moved in next door and I'm pretty sure she would live with them if she could. She is finally potty trained, fingers crossed it sticks this time. She is growing way to fast, She is way to smart and independent. She hates being told that someone is mad at her, and hates being in trouble. Phrase of choice lately has become 'don't talk mad at me, I don't like you to talk mad at me'. She genuinely wants people to like her and be happy with her and she does try hard to be good most of the time. I always thought before she would be my troublemaker and Lilly would be my sweet nice girl, but it is turning out to be quite the opposite. She still loves letters and is a pro at writting her name and getting very good at figuring out how to spell words by listening to the sounds. She is to smart for her own good and amazes me constantly with the things she says and does.

Jason and I are still around and the same as always. Not much to report. Trying desperately to keep up with these 2 busy bodies, my house is always a mess no matter how often I clean it and I find having 2 way overly energetic girls is the best work out routine out there. They never ever stop. Jason is hard at his business still but always makes time for his girls and we love him for it. he does understand how I can be so tired all the time and I love to threaten him with being alone with these 2 for a couple of days and seeing how he handles it. Someday... Just trying one day at a time to survive the crazy life of motherhood, who knew it could be so fun and so difficult at the same time.

Catching up

I've noticed lately that the world of blogs is dieing a little bit and I don't like it. I love reading and catching up on my friends lives and seeing pictures to feel like I'm a part of whats going on when I can't be there. I love having my blog to have a little 'journal' of my life with my amazing husband and my girls. I'm really going to try to keep up now, even if no one reads this, oh well. Thats not what it's really there for(if you're reading this I'm sorry and I'm happy you are!) but really, it's for me. A way to get out my thoughts and a place to keep my memories.

Alright, enough with my rant, not for a little catch up. It's been FAR to long. So much has changed. We were able to go to Arizona for Christmas and it was su

ch a good trip. Mia loves to spend time down there and see all of Jason's family. We love them all and miss them , it was so nice to spend that time. Also, there is nothing like a 70 degree Christmas. I am sorry, but all those songs about dreaming of a white Christmas are so so far off! It's all about being able to go out and play with your toys outside all day without layers and layers of clothes. Being able to walk to your friends house to see their load and walking back with them to see yours. Upholding family traditions of mini golf outdoors on Christmas day. I LOVE it and will never be ok with a freezing cold white Christmas.

Mia also turned 3 while we were there. I can't believe how big she is and how amazing she is. She is so full of spunk and love and giggles and oh so fun. She is so so smart and I just love seeing her soak up every bit of knowledge she can, especially when it comes

to letters. That girl loves her alphabet, loves to sing it, loves to write it and lately, even loves sounding out letters and figuring out what they say. She loves to wear her princess dresses, but even more, she LOVES to put on her pirate clothes and watch her very favorite, Captain Jack Sparrow. She started gymnastics in January, she has always been great at those kind of things and she is loving it. It is so fun and so so cute to watch her.

Then there's my sweet sweet baby. Oh she is my little heartbreaker... ok, maybe just because she's my baby and she's turning 1 next month! I can't believe it and I am so so not ready for her to grow up. She finally started crawling the right way in January and gets everywhere fast. She's up the stairs now too and takes a couple of steps here and there with a little tricking from her Dad. She has got such a fun little personality and it amazes me how different her and her sweet big sister are. They just love eachother and are great little play mates. I hate hate with a passion that she is growing up and getting bigger and love more then anything watching her learn and grow up. She is my sweet Momma's girl and I love it and will milk every second for all it's worth.

Overall, life is good. I still am so so very in love with my husband and feel so lucky to have him in my life every day. Jason is enjoying working and seeing where the company he co-founded will end up. Life is an adventure to say the least. We were able to go back to AZ in the end of January. Not for the best reason, but it was still so fun spending some time again with Jason's family and some of my very best friends. Can't wait for the weather to warm up and be able to get outside again. I am loving being a stay at home mom with my sweet girls and even if I get crazy burnt out from time to time, I feel so so thankful and blessed that I'm able to be with them through every milestone and watch them grow up first hand.